Hour by Hour

I did not know how long I could survive the intense pressure that was my poor dysfunctional family. My Dad was dead, my Mom just died a twisted and false death. So, I collapsed down to day by day living, then that wasn't good enough so I would live hour by hour. I had no idea how this would work out. I prayed to Mary, I prayed to Jesus, I prayed to Buddha, I sought the help of my Finnish ancestors, I talked to my Dad who had passed some time ago. I read Thomas Merton, I read philosophy to keep my mind focused. I tap danced, I juggled, I robbed Peter to pay Paul.